| another release late as day |
[Aug. 8th, 2007|10:17 pm] |
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i am trying to add to my life... many things have come and went thus far; i have been reminded that i am not as smart as i once was, at least bookwise... i have been brought down off the pedestal that everyone else seemed to have put me on; i am happy for that! i was starting to feel so very lonely on my high horse, but ironically, it was one whom i had convinced myself would not be able to keep up, because of less life lived... i'm glad i was mistaken... i am not happy that my low opinion of many people had begun to be subconsciously applied to more and most i had come in contact with, even though in many cases it held true, i had prided my ability to withhold opinion making until i got to know people well enough to develop a fairly reasonable familiarity with the truth of one's being... sadly, i had become so jaded in my place of employ and social circle that denigration of my ability to do so has been becoming nearly my outlook on life without me even realizing it. i don't think i have been around here often and recently enough for this to have been a blanket applied to those present here, but if it has, i apologize... if not, smack me if it begins!
thanks all. |
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| delay delay delay.... i must sleeeppppp must rest 4 work.... |
[Oct. 24th, 2005|12:40 am] |
ugh! i need 2 sleep. i am tired and have a "need rest" headache right now, but i'm coming off a buzz and rush. evil coffee, nice date.... ugh! keeping me up.... i need sleep. my mind is awake, but my body is tired, so now i need 2 convince my mind 2 sleep or else i'll be sleepy at workand that is not a good thing... i hate to give less than %100 at work; not just because i could get in trouble, but it offends my sensibilities and [work] ethic. the weather is so nice and seductive now because of its loveliness. mmm... i miss hawaii. i need 2 do something with mylife before i make myself crazy fantasizing how it'll be when i'm doing (such and such, etc., etc.)... eesh! Rose, hope that dude is feeling better. Yayumi, sorry i miss so many of your performances. work.... calls.... me... 2... bed.. now.. i must go to sleep. must, sleep.
time is a healer of ills great and small. illness is really and indicator to all (or one) of their needs unmet. i need 2 brush the teeth and go to bed, else great pains will be within mine head. ugh! good night all. dreams. (that breathe your name :) )
isaac
shadows fall
night brings
some peace
a rest
that is
and was
for this.
good night.... i keep procrastinating it..... UGH!
hugs love and kisses... whatever
good night |
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| these things are addictive.... |
[Oct. 24th, 2005|12:39 am] |
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| |  need 2 sleep! | ] |
| Your Ideal Relationship is Casual Dating | 
Maybe you're looking for love...
But mostly you're looking for fun.
You could get serious with the right person.
For now, though, you're enjoying playing the field. |
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| this will be the last one for now :P |
[Oct. 24th, 2005|12:24 am] |
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| | ready for bed, but fighting it | ] |
| Your Blogging Type Is Thoughtful and Considerate | 
You're a well liked, though underrated, blogger.
You have a heart of gold, and are likely to blog for a cause.
You're a peaceful blogger - no drama for you!
A good listener and friend, you tend to leave thoughtful comments for others. |
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| just ran into these and thought "hey, it might be cool" |
[Oct. 24th, 2005|12:03 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  and ready for bed | ] |
| [ | music |
| | The Elysian Fields | ] |
| You Are Somewhat Machiavellian | 
You're not going to mow over everyone to get ahead...
But you're also powerful enough to make things happen for yourself.
You understand how the world works, even when it's an ugly place.
You just don't get ugly yourself - unless you have to! |
| Your Brain's Pattern | 
Your mind is a multi dimensional wonderland, with many layers.
You're the type that always has multiple streams of though going.
And you can keep these thoughts going at any time.
You're very likely to be engaged in deep thought - and deep conversation. |
| How You Life Your Life | 
You seem to be straight forward, but you keep a lot inside.
You're laid back and chill, but sometimes you care too much about what others think.
You tend to have one best friend you hang with, as opposed to many aquaintences.
You tend to dream big, but you worry that your dreams aren't attainable. |
| Your Kissing Purity Score: 40% Pure | 
You're not one to kiss and tell...
But word is, you kiss pretty well. |
| What Your Sleeping Position Says |
You are confident and ready to tackle life.
You are pretty vain and happy with your physical appearance.
You are born to be the center of attention, and you're unhappy on the sidelines.
You're always up for trying something new - in and out of bed! |
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| back again from hiatus :) |
[Oct. 23rd, 2005|11:20 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | good | ] |
| [ | music |
| | the elysian fields - live for the touch | ] |
well, it always seems i end up coming back here for more.... its much more healthy than other things that one could always be returning to, i suppose... but i can't say i understand THAT sort of thing. the most i'd ever go back to someone would be 2, possibly 3 times, although i've never actually gotten to lucky no. 3 :) friends are friends are friends, although some friends are better than others in different situations / for different reasons... i suppose. i went to harbux for a pumkin spice latte; i feel like sucha traitor to "blend" but when u r jonesin for a late night cafe latte, there are only so many places ope then, and blend closes all day sunday and open late only fri. and sat. soooo.... what can u do :) i had fun tonight, and things seem to be looking up... no longer am i limited as much as i once was with the company i keep. i've been running into people as of late who i used to know, and making some new friends on the way too... i still miss sha and chris tho... can't say that i think i'll run into their likes any time soon... we have what we have, and must make do with that, and improve it if possible. that ice-blue-intense-eyed barista at blend is a wonder; the brown-eyed angel from the other place - she is the one i really want to know. DAMN! I LOVE THIS CD (The Elysian Fields - Dreams that Breathe Your Name) it is one of the greatest acquisitions i made for my music collection. is there a way i can place a sample of it here? oh well. beauty is in the eye of the beholder, and the beheld is near helpless to adjust that eye. I live I love I am. Never before has forever been and always will be until the next comes along. mmmm..... sexy.... luscious.... sorry thinking out loud on the music.... intense.... sensuous. enuff!
merry meet and fare thee wells,
the obsidianfalcon (isaac)
hearty music |
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| to celebrate the wookies :P |
[Jul. 5th, 2005|04:13 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | bemused | ] |
| [ | music |
| | the strokes - the end is no end | ] |
not really, dthat was just a phrase running up down in out all around just through my brain... or something... i've been so bored these past few days weeks whatever it'sablur... i've tried going out see if that would assuage my hunger thirst for more more love more life more joy... it works, then i wake up the next day... what did i do? was it fun? could i have done something more enjoyable? should i even care? i love my family and what little of friends i have these days. i enjoy their company, the camaraderie. what i miss is have others to spend time with. i often feel i can script what is going to happen when i do something with family, chill with the friends... it becomes tedious at times... enjoyable, but i need to expand horizons... perhaps i should be crazy and drive somewhere with a full tank of gas and not consider the ultimate destination, just wherever the road may lead me... that sounds like fun. mayhap i should go someplace and meet whoever may be present there and along the way... i don't know, i'm nearing rope of wits end to figure what to do with self life and times... maybe make a movie ::grin:: dunno... well, to the laters then all.
peace,
the dark bird of prey
isaac |
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| is this another.... wow |
[Jun. 29th, 2005|12:30 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | somber | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Soma FM: Indie Pop Rocks! | ] |
so i sit here thinking thoughts of ponderance and deviltry... my pagan mindset is beginning to reassert itself (once more)... i nnever truly gave up the thought of a shaman. what to do now... once again my person is forcing unwanted considerations upon me... the irony is, it's not altogether an unwelcome change; i was beginning to entropy much too much. it's been 3 or 4 years now since my 2 best female friends moved; yet i still miss them. it's been 2 or 3 years since i've been in a serious relationship; i don't really want to start another serious any time soon, although few in my family seems to [want to] understand that. sadly, i could care less, i'm just indifferent ... another step on a different road of life? ... question is, when all is said and done whether i truly care or not what others think... one thing i do miss from any serious relationship is the deep kiss, if only for the connection it provides to humanity, although not necessarily / specifically the other lover: the dew drops of a lover's nectar is one of the sweetest things, but it works most effectively as a glue, not so much a combination, but a simple bond between the two disparate objects... at times i feel severed from my reality, more so now then ever. the controls are set to landing, but the strip is not ready, or worse, not there. I wonder if deja vu is there as a substitute for the unfortunate condition of reality... heavens and spirit, above and below, know this has been things for me as of late... work and drudgery calls... mundanity summons. until then... merry meet |
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| eh... |
[Aug. 20th, 2004|01:05 pm] |
So i sit here thinking thoughts
of the world and such what nots
dreaming of the day
when all will join the fray
of this scary world we are living in
where does this madness end
or where did it begin
is it the future,
past,
or present
that scares us the most
what more need we know
whence these ailments
came to this moment
in time
we'll try to push
we'll try to coax
but those lead to less
then their respective boasts
I care not so much...
but concerned for this host...
Madness.
-Isaac |
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| whence... |
[Aug. 20th, 2004|01:14 am] |
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| | relieved | ] |
sweetness guide ye
where has my Juliet
gone unto this day
my concern is more
than merely bourne
to fruition on a whim
it lies within
a simple grim
slight coincidence
of errantry
and shivering
within the marrows of bones
something inexplicable
to the untutoreds' know
what wickedness
and deviltry
should then thus be
the undoing
of my dearest love
-Isaac |
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| Shaded trees and colored moons |
[Aug. 6th, 2004|11:38 am] |
| [ | music |
| | Bush - Don't Wanna Come Down | ] |
I've just gotten off work maybe a half hr. to an hr. ago and am now at home. I saw some of the students from my middle school route this school year past. Tonight I'm going to be checking out First Friday at the King William / Blue Star Art district in good old downtown San Antonio... should be fun. c'est la vie. |
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| a little bit of catchup pleeze |
[Jul. 19th, 2004|05:12 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | refreshed | ] |
| [ | music |
| | the undertones of a modern lifestyle | ] |
Well, my bro in law has been back from Iraq a couple days now... i missed him this time past. my nephew's heading back to California tomorrow, i had a little work today... can't wait until school starts so i don't need to worry about budgeting my money as much, and i can start shopping around for computers, portable DVD players, and handheld computers (ie: palm pilot). that will be so fun... but i almost forgot i still need to get some new shoes first... i still need to work at my writing, so that way i can at least feel like i've done something for my summer vacation, seeing as how my bus driving work is only sporadically available during summertime... like i said to many a people when discussing my summer work with the school district, or lack thereof, "it's enough to to make my car payment and insurance, but not much else..." so be it. I never realized how much i care for people inspite of their idiosyncrasies, or perhaps because of them. I'm gonna miss my nephew a bit, even though he'll be back, and he was whining, fussing, being grumpy, whatever over tamales... :) seriously! He was! I miss Christina and Sha a lot; they were some of the best female friends a guy could want. eh, oh well my asides are getting in the way of where my thought train was heading, and now i don't remember witherto that was.
A sun shining bright
shares with shadow and light
the secrets within
its enfolding grasp
cherubim
and devlish hands
sharing with those
who know to ask
of this
and that
isaac
7-19-2004 |
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| nothing much, just testing... |
[Jul. 15th, 2004|04:43 am] |
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| | sleepy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | none | ] |
because i am just getting started and i have a very slow 'puter machine, i'm testing out this LJ client... semagic i believe... well that's it for now... i cannot believe it is already going on five am.... i need to sleep aearlier, all this night owl stuff is bad for the health and such or something like that goodnight. |
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| this is not rally a first but for here |
[Jul. 15th, 2004|04:25 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  and tired too | ] |
| [ | music |
| | some late-night tv show ::shrug:: | ] |
...sooo.... i suppose ishould offer this word of warning to all... i'm kind of strange, not much of a writer when it comes to a personal journal... typically i'll utilize any forum of writing and such to further my wicked schemes of exposure to the world of my ideas as relayed in prose and or miscellaneous other written expression... it's 4:18 am as you will see in the post, so i'm going to make little to no sense whatsoever herewith. steevo, rose, love ya'll take care, and obey der (wumpskut)weinerschnitzel :P that is for nick. muwahahahahaha <--the evillaugh
intimation of the degredation
to the strength of a nation
i bid
welcome wells
to these swells
upon which
the white foam
groans
its ephemeral song
to those upon
which
our foundations are lain
and the blood lies
of the newly slain
martyr.
-isaac |
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